How do you express the hurt you feel? How do you describe the love that you harbor? How does one put into words a thing of grand beauty? How do you tell someone how deeply you care? How can you stand back and watch the one you love do something you know will hurt them? When someone will not listen or see what your trying to say, how? So many questions harbored within each of us. How do we even begin to answer questions we ask of ourselves? When the answers elude us, what can we do? Are you lost as to how to express to someone that they are everything to you? How do you explain to them the depth of your love, your concerns? Can you effectively put into words the range of emotions and feelings? Is it possible to state things in such a way as to not sound selfish? I know that I am at a loss when it comes to the one I love. I wish to tell him how he is the world to me. That without him the world is a very cold and dark place. How can I watch him walk away without looking back? How can I not wither inside to a shriveled mass of who I used to be? He walks away and I fall to my knees sobbing on the outside. While I feel as though I am dying on the inside. How can I find the joy of living again? Do I want to? Why would I want to risk feeling this pain again? How to even begin to put the pieces of me back together again? How do I stop the hurting that is eating away at me inside? I am sure I will continue, but I've no clue how to at this point. I feel like an empty shell walking through life as a marionette. Who is the puppeteer that runs my life? Why must they keep giving me joy, then such pain? I am tired of the hurt, the loneliness that comes with it. With him I was whole, complete, now I am naught but a broken shell. Love and life are fickle things. Short lived, changing, given and taken away. Endure I must, how to do that, I do not know. Struggle to find the path to healing, that is required. Without healing, we are all doomed to live alone in our black abyss within.